It's been a while

The last post I published was on April 2, today is June 25, 12 weeks later. I will admit that it wasn't exactly a clear train of thought that led me to the decision to take a break. I was struggling to come up with new topics to write about, and only then did I realize that new posts every week was a huge commitment. I knew, theoretically, that I wasn't the one who came up with the topics or ideas for my posts, but that God was the one telling me what he wanted me to tell others. However, I felt it was up to me to strain my ears and heart for the faintest clues in my everyday life of what God wanted me to write about, and well... let's just say that straining is tiring, really tiring.

I was also struggling with efforts to increase my readership, trying to post content on Instagram and Facebook to let people know anytime I published a new post, sharing links on my stories and statuses (yes, "statuses" is the correct plural of status), so I began to doubt whether God actually led me to do this. I thought, "If God really wanted me to do this, it wouldn't be so hard," so I let it go. My reasoning at the time was that it was better sooner, rather than later. I didn't know what would come of the decision, so I didn't make it permanent. "I'm just going to take a break," I told myself, "and see what happens.

In the twelve weeks following that decision, a lot has happened. Most relevant in this context are the two times I received evangelism pamphlets from random people while waiting for the bus. I realized that these people were doing their part in bringing people to God's kingdom. I took time of to focus on myself, nurture myself, and take a break, and while that is valid, I had abandoned my part in bringing people to God's kingdom. And yes, I'll still struggle this time around, but I have this quote and God to give me comfort: "Successful evangelism is taking the initiative to share the gospel, and leaving the results to the Holy Spirit." Welcome back!